Smile, smile and smile some more

I operate in the mid of chaos....I know each one of my fellow mates hate their jobs...I know all of them are on the way out....I have argued it out with the big bosses but they don't seem to listen...they are too psychic to understand...there is no hope....but i cannot afford to look gloomy and spread the despair..the least I can do is smile...if to no one else, it makes me feel better...it heals me....i smile and try to connect to the other person trying to tell him that I am there for him...i look into his soul and leave in him for the blur of a moment a fading impression of the cheerfulness of a sun...the brightness of a rose the message that "no matter what it means, i am aware of his troubles and I empathise with him"... He returns the smile and walks away leaving in me a hope that he does not hold me responsible for the chaos around him...a hope that he knows that I tried enough to move the rock but failed...his smile gives me the strength to try yet again...his smile pleads to me that i cannot give up...

I begin to write

Writing is a form of meditation...i have always been in awe of people who write marvellously... i have always thought that my right brain is too inactive for me to be able to write something that makes sense ...forget writing something that others enjoy to read...but then i do not meditate to please others... then y should i compare my scribblings with other's master pieces of writings.... i will write so that my half dead right brain does not enter the state of coma...so that i again start to feel the excitement that I used to feel when our English teacher at my class would pronounce a new word and teach us it's usage in a sentence.....i remember Mrs. Pavan's "cavalier" or Mrs Ratnateja's "causal"...i hadnt heard them till class 8...i had so much loved to underline them in my book... i continue to treasure them till date...i continue to recall the piosness of those classes...let me be my teacher for once...let me learn myself again..."into a glory of knowlege my lord...let my right brain awake"